Tether

Sometimes I’m filled

With such emptiness

I float away, so far

Yet without fail

You pull me back

Smiling, saying, “There you are”

x marks the spot

it’s strange to rest into someone

in a gesture so routine, so intimate

yet never feel further away

from who they once were to you

 

i guess there’s a comfort to familiarity

that sounds a lot like the whispers of love

and there’s an insidious delight to touch

that surpasses the rational senses

Yes, I have grown out of my old, empty shell and

instead of taking a new one,

I now face the world as myself; uninhibited

I’m vulnerable, yet at my strongest

With foolish courage I can now admit I have this great love inside of me,

but I have not quite figured out

in this new, beautiful chaos

where to put it

Wendy

You were my escape but I don’t need one anymore

Alone, I’m learning to face the world with uninhibited intent

I have grown out of the girl you loved and I am no longer sorry

Winter’s Blush

Basking in the sunshine, reading drowsily as a gentle breeze caresses the pages- I cannot hide my love from spring.

I watched the storm and wanted to become her

Could’a Would’a Should’a

‪I don’t know how to feel so I won’t‬

‪No… I wouldn’t‬

‪I always knew I couldn’t‬

‪But…perhaps I had‬

‪So, what was that?‬

Conflict of Interest

I cannot stop the distance growing from this stagnancy

Realizing I cannot love you without hating myself

Has left me unsure of what to do with these hands

That both reach out and resist

(Or what I want you to do with yours)

Loneliness Is My Oldest Lover

You gave me distance

That was your mistake

I’m in love with Misery

Familiar with heart ache

Do not be shocked

That I’m comfortable alone

I’ve only ever belonged to myself

And never believed in home

Wicked Little Habits

You tell yourself you’re better off alone

That everything is temporary

Yet find yourself creating ghosts

Just to keep you company

Go ahead then

Push everyone you love away

Just to know you can survive

The hole they’ll leave one day

Keep wandering from place to place

Too scared to put down roots

Cause caring is like Russian Roulette

You shoot, click, shoot, click, shoot, click,

Boom